Today, after stating a strong opinion I have of current culture, I deactivated my Facebook account. For business reasons, FB doesn't allow it's users to just freely delete their account, thinking they'll come back to use it once more.
I want to say is that I'm glad to live in a country where we can freely state our beliefs and opinions without being convicted for it. However, I am not glad that when you choose to, whether it be on a social networking website or a blog or wherever you may choose; you can set yourself up for ridicule because a popular opinion may outrule yours of the moment.
No one's opinion is greater than the person sitting next to them; not even the President or Queen of England. This, I know.
But it seems as if whenever you try to say something about what you've been thinking, and it's a little bit different, then your opinion's value/worth decreases.
In my life, I've had the best luck of always having bad timing. I want to get something off my chest, and I do, then it somehow creates an issue with the people I care about. If I want to go somewhere and have saved the money for it and planned it, something happens with the event or the city I want to go to (or like my -un-trip to England, I'm accused of having the wrong papers and get detained). Or say, I purchase something I'd really wanted for a while and feel overjoyed to have this item in my possesion, only to find out a couple days later, it's gone on an incredible sale (this has happened to me many times).
Needless to say, I'm going to take a break from the online-social world. Maybe post a few blogs if I feel up to it and read posts I find of interest from time to time. But I've become increasingly tired of feeling like absolute shit for being myself and trying to be brave with what I have to say and getting shot down for it.
My life is good, for the most part. And I am so grateful to have what I have including shelter, food, clothing and most important of all, love.
But my life hasn't been a piece of cake lately either. And this just seemed to be the icing on it. Like that one last punch to knock me down and make me realize that I need to figure out what I really want to do in this life and where I want to go; including in my personal life, career and where I'll live.
This post is not getting written for attention, at all, whatsoever. I was accused of that a few years ago when I fell into a depression because people didn't like what I was doing and saying. You're thinking, 'Maybe this is a sign that you should keep your mouth shut and just enjoy life'. Yeah, maybe so, but if you live in fear of saying things and acting on things you feel most important, then you really aren't being who you're meant to be.
I hope I've never offended anyone, truly. And I also hope that you take the time today to count all your blessings, because they are there for a reason. Don't ever take them for granted.
And also?
"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face."
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
- Eleanor Roosevelt (Both Quotes)
